Day 146: Cont'd

Today's workout:

PACE active warm up 3 rounds of 20
10 min Concept 2 rowing machine
Wall squats, front squats, jumping squats 3 rounds of 10
walking lunges
back extensions, push ups 3 rounds of 20
70 sit ups
100 crunches
100 calories burned on the treadmill

I am totally exhausted. Just a few minutes ago, I completed my diary on Myfitnesspal.com and it read, 'If every day were today, you'd weigh 129 lbs in 5 weeks.' Just seeing that I'm actually so close to my goal of 125 after all these years makes me so happy!

Day 145: 139 lbs !!!

Peace out, plateau.

Being good all week has paid off! I've finally reached another milestone.

Today's workout at 8:30 am was:




Bad ass!!

Day 144: Cont'd

So I weighed-in. I'm only two pounds shy of breaking through my plateau weight.

CW 141

This is the eating plan I've followed this week. Since I stick to a 1200 calorie program, I omitted the grey (snack) option.
I must say, throughout the plan, I have been very satisfied. I have not felt deprived or weak at all and have still been eating real food amongst my 2X a day GNC Total Lean protein shakes.

The supplement pack is perfect. I must forewarn that it has to be taken along with food or you may feel nauseous. I do not feel jittery or anxious and have not experienced mood swings since I began this program. I do feel less bloated, although my carb intake on this program is an average of about 159-195 g per day. This is an incredible amount of carbohydrates, in comparison to my normal attempts at keeping below 50g regularly.

I'm eating more carbs and losing more weight. That's what it comes down to. I definitely need carbs because I'm working out so hard at the gym. Visit PACEPerformance.net to view my workouts, which are mostly modified versions of the Crossfit.com workout of the day.

Day 142: 142 lbs - Day 2 of GNC Total Lean

This morning, I woke up and felt better than I have since carb cutting, raw foods eating, and every other dietary lifestyle change I've tried.

Plus, I'm down 2 lbs! That's a major plus. Yesterday, I wasn't even hungry or feeling deprived because there was food to eat and shakes which filled me up in between. The vanilla shake isn't tasty...but it's do-able. With this program, it's necessary to get one of those water bottles which has a shaker built-in. Otherwise, you'll end up having a lumpy shake which is really unappetizing.

The supplements don't give me heart palpitations or jitters. I could probably drink tea or coffee with them. I definitely noticed more sweat throughout my workouts.

Through my PACE Performance workouts I have cut more inches off my waist and hips.

Now, my starting measurements for this GNC Total Lean program are as follows:

Bust 36
Waist 28.5
Hips: 36

That's an inch and a half off my waist and an inch off my hips! My goal is to reach a 24 inch waist. That's a classic waistline.
An example of 'Classic' would be Brooklyn Decker:



Her measurements according to her Wiki are: 34D, 24, 34.

That's inspiration! Or should I say, Thinspiration?

Tried it! WeightMirror - Weight Loss Simulation Tool

This was my result to display what I would look like if I lost another -21 pounds. I don't think I look very much like 119 lbs in this photo. Looks more like a blurry version of my webcam pict shot from the other day. What do you think?

Day 115: 140 LBS! Size 8

Being a fan of keeping my journal's the old-skool way, I had to start this weight loss blog by filling in my details backwards.
Today, Feb 25th.. I hit a new milestone since I began my hard-copy recorded journey in November.

This morning, my weigh-in is:

140.5

Created by MyFitnessPal - Free Weight Loss Tools

I almost have a six-pack! It's amazing. I feel so great lately, I got a new haircut to show off my healthy and shiny hair and my confidence is becoming contagious on my friends.



I know my boyfriend definitely notices!!!

Day 112: 2/22!

Happy 222 everyone!

222 is a special day and a special number. 222 means 'You're on the right path.' It's a pattern, or synchronicity which appears to those who are on a quest and as we all know, I'm kinda on one right now!

I hope this day brings you as much happiness as I.

Breakfast: Vitamuffin and fruit (clementine and berries)
Lunch: Open faced roast beef sandwich / side salad
Dinner: Flat iron steak and quinoa

Gym: 45 min Elliptical resistance 7
Strength: Cable punches, bench presses, row, pull bar, wood chop, LOADS of lunges (just don't stop and do them right!) and ab bench. Oh and do push ups and pull ups using the bar! You'll def be getting results doing that!

Day 44: 154 lbs

154! Only two more pounds until I hit my 20 lb milestone. How exciting! No more appetizers, at least like I was eating. Appetizers are so inviting. I love wings, especially now when football is on. There's nothing more fun than hanging out with friends, watching the game and eating wings.

I was looking for weight loss inspiration on the web recently, or as another blog calls it, 'Thinspiration'. So many girls fall victim to becoming utterly obsessed with trying to be anorexic or sickly because they feel they have to be in order to be loved. It's terrible. My heart goes out to everyone out there who has emotional eating disorders, such as myself. When I was in LA, I went to the gym and tried dieting, even tried having the 5-factor-diet delivered to my house. It didn't work. I gained nearly forty pounds between 1/09-1/10. Why?

When it comes to weight loss, you must realize what weight really is. My acting coach in LA, John Coppola of Studio C artists, was my Glinda or good witch. He helped me more than he will ever know. The way he coached his actors was a form of archetypal study. Every week, I would meditate and literally 'meet' a fictitious alternate-personality who resided within myself. One of these was my saboteur.
My saboteur was a biker boot wearing, Johnny Cash type of guy. He would make sure I'd lose my keys before an audition or would get into an accident on the way to a production. He helped make sure I failed. Once I 'met' him, I could isolate him and take away his power. When this happened, I started realizing how much he had effected my life and my life began to change for the better.
That's when I met HER, my gluttonous fat and lazy archetype. She would sit on the couch and watch TV, smile and whisper things in my ear like, 'Stay inside today. You can go outside tomorrow. Skip the gym. Make an entire batch of rosemary potatoes and eat enough to feed a small army. Then throw it up.'

If you even have the slightest attachment to food, then you must confront the person who destroys your potential! Close your eyes, envision yourself surrounded by a glowing light, finally from the ground up, you will see this archetypal character before you. Meet him or her, ask questions, find out why you've been hiding from your potential and take away the saboteurs power!

Post traumatic stress, losing a loved one, and peer pressure can be sabotaging your happiness. Don't let it. This weight loss is about you and only you. It's not a contest, it's not about jealousy of others or of yourself, it's a letting go. Letting go is the most important step.

I had been hiding behind my weight gain for some time but by adding even a 10 minute meditation or talk with friends about inner feelings, will help you become healthy mentally so you can move forward in being healthy physically.

It took me awhile to realize just how important this is because you can't change, if you can't find a problem!

Now that I have established my stance on the psychological process of losing weight. I will soon share philosophies on Thinspiration which must be viewed with a healthy mind.

Day 2:

I'm a little sore...

Weight: 171 lbs
Cardio: 30 min of Elliptical with the resistance on 3
Strength: Leg machines, inner/outer thighs

This isn't as easy as I remembered. Today, the scale reads 171 but I feel like 185. I'm bloated, tired, and would much rather cruise Marshall's sale racks than go to the gym today.


I went to the diner and ate chicken nuggets and fries, and a french onion soup. That was my only meal.
I know it's not healthy but it's not easy to hang out with friends who want to go out to eat as a social thing.

Day 1: 172.5 LBS - Time to change.

Stats:

Height: 5'7
Weight: 172.5
Size: Extra large/14


The alarm rang this morning at 10 a.m., yes, I need an alarm to wake me up at 10 a.m. Truth is, I have been totally exhausted and for no valid reason. I admire the 5 a.m. gym goers, the preppy girls who can actually go to bed at a decent hour. I eat my dinners in front of my 52' LCD flat screen, I could easily inhale an entire flank steak and bowl of french fries. It has been months since I went to the gym and worked out, or read rag mags on the treadmill.

Tired and hungry. With the holiday season already approaching, I can't even stomach the thought of gaining another 10 lbs.
Why?

I can't button my STRETCH PANTS. Jeans have been out of the question for awhile now. There's no such thing as cute size 14 jeans.
Yes, big and beautiful women do exist but my body is an uneven façade. A decently attractive and somewhat slender face on a wide load of a behind.

My closet? My closet is somewhat empty. Empty because my size 8 'skinny jeans' have been put into storage for the last three years. It upsets me. I used to have so many clothes. I gained 40 lbs after a break up.

I've had it. I'm sick and tired of being overweight, tired, and wearing the same boring black stretch clothes.
I'm sick of hiding behind my weight.

Since I was fifteen, I've written a specific goal weight in the entries of my Moleskine journal. 125 lbs.
Goal weight: 125 lbs. Endless goal lists have read 125 lbs. Always 125 lbs. I never achieved that goal.

I want it so bad, I can taste it. I've never been slimmer than a largely cut size 8. I know I can.

I'm ready to get started. Off to the gym I go! Wish me luck!!