Day 58: 156 lbs the plateau

What an awful, terrible thing. the weight loss plateau. Maybe it was because of the holiday season, either way. That time of year is stressful no matter what religion you follow. Just being a human during the holidays is stressful enough. There's 'Holiday soiree's', family functions or as I call them, dysfunctions, and shopping? Forget it. Next year, everyone is getting a huge hug and THAT'S IT.
Malls become reckless epicenters of anxiety! How can you enjoy spending time with loved ones when it's all about buying and fighting for store bought goods? No wonder so many people become intoxicated during the holidays. So dangerous. I think we need to re-evaluate the real importance of these things!

Recently, we had our dysfunctional family dinner. It's always a really delicious event. It's easy to become tempted into gorging myself with mashed potatoes (my fav) and gravy. I could commit carbicide! Instead, it's good to use that old trick: Drink a full glass of water before eating. I know it sounds cliche but it helps. Turkey is great, even a little stuffing is okay but be careful to avoid more than a fist measurement of carbs and tasty bad stuffs.

HOLIDAYS ARE THE ENEMY. It is crucial that you remember that a moment on the lips is a lifetime on the hips. If you see the amazing spread of food as an opportunity to gluttonize, then your eyes will sabotage your game. Keep your game on, focus on the reason you're there in the first place. Conversation and sharing with loved ones. Don't zone out in temptation.

Stay on the path. I will break this plateau. I WILL break this plateau.

Day 44: 154 lbs

154! Only two more pounds until I hit my 20 lb milestone. How exciting! No more appetizers, at least like I was eating. Appetizers are so inviting. I love wings, especially now when football is on. There's nothing more fun than hanging out with friends, watching the game and eating wings.

I was looking for weight loss inspiration on the web recently, or as another blog calls it, 'Thinspiration'. So many girls fall victim to becoming utterly obsessed with trying to be anorexic or sickly because they feel they have to be in order to be loved. It's terrible. My heart goes out to everyone out there who has emotional eating disorders, such as myself. When I was in LA, I went to the gym and tried dieting, even tried having the 5-factor-diet delivered to my house. It didn't work. I gained nearly forty pounds between 1/09-1/10. Why?

When it comes to weight loss, you must realize what weight really is. My acting coach in LA, John Coppola of Studio C artists, was my Glinda or good witch. He helped me more than he will ever know. The way he coached his actors was a form of archetypal study. Every week, I would meditate and literally 'meet' a fictitious alternate-personality who resided within myself. One of these was my saboteur.
My saboteur was a biker boot wearing, Johnny Cash type of guy. He would make sure I'd lose my keys before an audition or would get into an accident on the way to a production. He helped make sure I failed. Once I 'met' him, I could isolate him and take away his power. When this happened, I started realizing how much he had effected my life and my life began to change for the better.
That's when I met HER, my gluttonous fat and lazy archetype. She would sit on the couch and watch TV, smile and whisper things in my ear like, 'Stay inside today. You can go outside tomorrow. Skip the gym. Make an entire batch of rosemary potatoes and eat enough to feed a small army. Then throw it up.'

If you even have the slightest attachment to food, then you must confront the person who destroys your potential! Close your eyes, envision yourself surrounded by a glowing light, finally from the ground up, you will see this archetypal character before you. Meet him or her, ask questions, find out why you've been hiding from your potential and take away the saboteurs power!

Post traumatic stress, losing a loved one, and peer pressure can be sabotaging your happiness. Don't let it. This weight loss is about you and only you. It's not a contest, it's not about jealousy of others or of yourself, it's a letting go. Letting go is the most important step.

I had been hiding behind my weight gain for some time but by adding even a 10 minute meditation or talk with friends about inner feelings, will help you become healthy mentally so you can move forward in being healthy physically.

It took me awhile to realize just how important this is because you can't change, if you can't find a problem!

Now that I have established my stance on the psychological process of losing weight. I will soon share philosophies on Thinspiration which must be viewed with a healthy mind.

Day 37: 156.5 LBS

I can finally wear my cute Size 12 stretch jeans.

I hit the gym only twice this week and still lost a lot of weight. I think most of it is just water weight. I hope I can keep this going. I fluctuate every day and I just don't understand why one day these jeans button and the other day they don't...

Oh maybe because today's photo is outside of a cheap steak house...

Today's stats:

Gym: Nope
Breakfast: 3 egg white omelet with cheddar cheese, ham, and spinach.
Lunch: Starbucks black coffee with sugar-free hazelnut
Dinner: Porterhouse steak, marinated. Baked potato, French Onion Soup, and WINGS.

Day: 30 159.5 Size 12

FINALLY, I'm in the 150's! After Thanksgiving even!

Here's today's stats:

Weight 159.5
Cardio: 40 min Elliptical 5 resistance
Strength: Leg machines

I'm starting to get used to this whole gym thing. I'm actually developing sort of a routine here.
I make sure to go to the gym at least 3x a week and try to fit in my two meals a day...

Lunch
Healthy Request Italian Wedding soup

Dinner:
.5 lb Flank steak with fries and a side salad